Many things had been happening recently.
It really made me dislike certain things in life.
The environment, the type of people, the sort of remarks
and the problems.I got really sick of issues.

Yet it all came unexpected.
God, you know how depressed I was.
I do admit, I doubt at times.
But help me surpress all these doubts, troubles and craps that satan
keep bombarding me.

I thought a lot.
I thought about my earthly close friends.
When on earth will they actually appear?
I feel empty in classes.
I just want to belong somewhere.
But I landed nowhere.
Far off the coast called 'good friends'.

Perhaps I am expecting too much as a friend.
Its impossible to reach your standards. Unbeatable.
I should really learn to treasure instead.

Drift away, then regret.
Not all things can be mended right, God?

Then I thought about people who said stuffs about me.
I just started CURSING AND SWEARING AT THEM
IN MY HEART, IT WAS BITTER. Yet I know that I would be them
if it was a wenzhen and God thing.
You'd probably get disgusted by my sins.
Yet you reminded me to love.

No matter what happens, wenzhen will always learn to forgive
and love them. Not because they're popular, smart, pretty and
glamorous. But because God first love.

My dear friend, I really hope to spend some quality time with you.
Things may never never be the same life before.
But at least things will be better off than now. I still remember you. :)
Do you remember me?