I tried , I really tried.
Just too tired , i really am.

I tried really hard to not think about it.
I m too sensitive. I m sorry. I don't want
you people to think that i m "xiaoqi" or
whatsoever. But today , i just can't take it
no longer. My nature. I know , it's a joke.
But i wasn't tame enough to take such jokes.
Yes , i joke alot but not at this sort of
joke. I guess you people predicted that i
wouldn't take it to heart. But i mind every
word people say. God , teach me how to be not
so self-conscious and more ignorant towards joke
will you?

I feel like crying , i don't want
misunderstandings to take place. I really don't.
I know the moment i told you people i didn't
like it you people will be saying i took it too
serious or so. I drifted apart from you people.
Sometimes i wish things didn't change. I didn't
like people talking about me. Whatever you call
it.

Sometimes i really wonder. Wonder why. why
things are made this way. This way , it is suppose to
be that way . That way , towards the end of
everything . Everything , everything ...
I m stepping forward back to you. You , the
creator of everything .

I really treasure my friends and don't wish to
lose them but . ohwell ...